As I get older it is hard not to forget things. I have heard that brain function goes down after the age of 18. Not sure if that is actually true or not, but it seems to be. There are so many things that I have forgotten. I can’t remember how it feels to be a kid and be carefree and fun. Without the weight of a mortgage, or a car payment, or any bills at all. I have forgotten all of the things I imagined I would do with my life as a child. I pretended I was all grown up a lot, but somehow those dreams I had as a child have gotten lost. My aspirations changed as I got older and I became more realistic, and somehow my childlike feelings were forgotten. I can’t remember what it is like to live in a state other than Utah & Idaho. I still have dim memories of making sure I knew where all the safe houses on my paper route were, carrying pepper spray, and making sure I had a house key before I left the house for school. Being raised scared is tough to forget. But I can’t remember what it was like to be in the minority as far as my religion. It is so easy in Utah & Idaho, at least where I lived, to talk about religion openly. I have forgotten what it is like to always be the odd ball that had some sort of strange religion, being told all the time I couldn’t do this or that because I was Mormon. I can’t remember spending time with my brother growing up. I have entire vacation memories where my brother is absent. He is eleven years older than me, and I don’t think we spent a whole lot of time together. By the time I was old enough to remember much about him, he wasn’t around anymore. He was in high school and playing sports and spending times with his buddies or girlfriends. Most of my childhood memories include my mom and my sisters. It must have been the lack of time I spent with my dad and brother that contribute to them being completely missing. Of course there are always memory cues that remind of things that happened as a kid or times I did spend with my brother or dad. The mind is very interesting in the way that one word or phrase can take you back to a memory you didn’t even know you had. It is just hard being able to recall those memories without some sort of cue.
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This post was well written. I thought that you could elaborate a little more on the idea of forgetting being careless without adult responsibilities and also about not having memories with your brother. I don't have many memories with my brother growing up either, but I am making some now so that is great. I am new at being an adult, but I can feel the carelessness slipping away a little at a time. So sad. Good post though!
ReplyDeleteThis is sincere and it showed in your writing. I'd disagree that you have "dim" memories of your paper route, you could elaborate on why you remember that so well. I like that you have so much content and diverse ideas, if you focused on a couple them and delved deeper it'd be even better.
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